The Picnic Table of Conditioning
- Matt M.
- Jun 28
- 3 min read
This week has included a great deal of vivid dreams for me. Some I remember after I wake up and others I do not. Regardless, the dreams are clear that I am connecting with my Higher Self to receive assistance in my emotional, mental and spiritual development.
The dream I am sharing in this post is centered around additional layers of conditioning that are releasing from my unconscious self.
In this particular dream I was in an outdoor setting. I was sitting at a picnic table during a Thanksgiving type of holiday. This gathering included people that I've had challenges with throughout my life. I remember feeling restless while sitting at the picnic table.
My feeling of restlessness was because the gathering for this holiday was not out of celebration, but a shared comfort zone. The food was the same. The decorations were the same. The conversations were the same as they had been years before. There wasn't any new life to the holiday so I sat at the table and kept my head down. My goal was to let the holiday pass me by because I was bored by it.
As I was allowing the holiday to pass me by, I noticed a group of people started to walk across where I was sitting. This group included people I used to know from other aspects of my past. Each of them looked vibrant, at peace and excited because they were heading towards something beautiful. My interest grew as I saw my old friends.
As they passed, one of the group members said: "We're heading to the top of Rock Creek (a mountain in my dream) to watch the sunset.". I was so excited and inspired by that idea when my friend mentioned it to me.
I instantly wanted to go. Unfortunately, I felt bound to my picnic table. I felt bound to remain in the stagnant experience of this yearly holiday because it was expected of me. Because "it's what I'm supposed to do".
So I stayed. However, something within myself shifted while I sat at the picnic table. I began to understand that I could let go of this holiday without feeling regret. That I am supposed to explore the world around me and interact.
With this new understanding I turned to my left. I could see my friends heading up the mountain but I also could see the sunset. I was able to enjoy it from the table and know that I could one day get to the top of the mountain and see even more of it.
When I woke up from this dream I just sat with it. I took a drive and spoke about it out loud. I came to understand the dream. Essentially, I am still holding onto layers of fear and anger regarding my past.
This fear and anger only remains because I choose to stay at the picnic table, not because it's actually being forced upon me. I am also allowing my perceptions of other people's opinions, expectations and ways of life to hold me back from living my own.
I have the power to release this conditioning and head up the mountain to watch the sunset. I don't need to stay within the expectations and projections of others any longer. I can watch the sunset as I want to.
I am ready to release these additional layers of anger. I am ready to embrace my adventurous spirit again and head up the mountain. I need to literally and metaphorically get on a mountain again. It's one of my favorite places to be.
That's all for now and thank you for reading!
Matt
