Let Go of "Worry"
- Matt M.
- Jul 22
- 4 min read
When I woke up this morning I took a few minutes to acclimate to my surroundings. My mind was still processing the dreams from the night before. It felt like I had more dreams then usual. I then realized that I couldn't remember most of the dreams.
Admittedly, there was a part of me that was disappointed by this as I enjoy reviewing my dreams in a conscious way. However, I also understand that sometimes I'm not meant to remember the dreams consciously. It's part of the spiritual process.
With this understanding, I decided to move into my morning meditation. I selected a peaceful binaural music track and began the process of going within. As I ventured into my inner-self, I found myself going deep into the meditation.
Thoughts would arise but it felt much easier to move back to my center. However, I had this underlying worry arise that I attached to a couple of times.
As this feeling of worry arose, I went into it. I didn't want to deny it. I wanted to understand it so that I can integrate it into my being and ultimately release it from my life. As I moved into this emotion, I felt my worry increase. Thoughts and questions came up. For example:
"What if I do this wrong?"
"Did I do this wrong?"
"Will this work out?"
"Is this what I should be doing?"
It was unnerving to be in this "worry". However, I also knew that I've been "worrying" the last few weeks as I navigate two jobs, my creative self and other areas of my personal life. It's been a lot of juggling and while juggling I have needed to release my thoughts of worry to ensure that I bring neutrality into my present moment. This neutrality allows abundance to flow. This meditation felt like an opportunity to further address an aspect of myself that I no longer needed.
As I was in the raw emotion of worry and fear, I heard my mom take the car keys and leave the apartment. My "worry" spiked to the point that I could feel it in my body. I didn't like that but understood how my emotions have an impact on my physical body. So...why was I worried that my mom took the car keys? My mind was happy to tell me:
"Well, Matt you have work at 12pm today. Also, you didn't set the car up for your mom. Also, the car needs an oil change. Also, that car needs to be washed. See...this is why you should worry Matt. This is bad. What if she's not back in time?".
As these thoughts came into my being, I decided to follow up to each of them as follows while in meditation:
"Well, Mind my mom knows I need the car by 11am so I have enough time to leave for work. Also, my mom is more then capable to set the car up for her needs. Also, the car will get an oil change on Friday. Also, the car will be washed on Friday. See...this is why I shouldn't worry, Mind. This is good. All is well and she will be back well before I leave. Now please stop."
My mind became quieter by realizing that I matched it's "worry" with my reality. The reality that all is well and will continue to be well. Thankfully, this level of "worry" that I experienced during meditation today was more about releasing the thought pattern, belief system and habit of "worry" from my unconscious self. This morning's meditation was an opportunity to let go of the emotion and unconscious behavior of "worry" that was never me to begin with.
After the meditation, I pulled two cards as I normally do. The first card was from the Galactic Heritage Deck - 30: Survival Fears - Zeta Reticuli - Past. This is what stuck out to me:
"Perhaps the card is telling you to look at your own survival fears and learn to heal them."
"Working with this issue as a human is extremely powerful and can change your life, because it can free you from worry, fear, and anxiety that keep you stuck."
The second card I pulled was from the Osho Zen Tart deck. This card was "Consciousness". What stood out to me from this card is as follows:
"He represents the consciousness that is available to all who become a master of the mind and can use it as the servant it is meant to me. When you choose this card, it means that there is a crystal clarity available right now, detached, rooted in the deep stillness that lies at the core of your being."
"There is no desire to understand from the perspective of the mind--the understanding you have now is existential, whole, in harmony with the pulse of life itself. Accept this great gift, and share it."
My "worry" is based on the survival fears that I obtained throughout my life and these fears became my unconscious nature. By matching my mind's thoughts with neutrality, peace and love, I can let go of my Survival Fears at an even deeper level of myself.
As I let go of "worry", I open myself up to embed my unconscious with aspects of my true-self. Self-confidence, self-love, self-respect and more. As I integrate these new aspects of myself, I can then share them with those around me.
...This was a productive morning meditation haha
That's all for this post. Thanks for reading and enjoy your present moment!
Matt
