When Rejection Awakens Old Stories

I find myself in familiar territory after moving from New York to Indiana. I am on the hunt again to find a job. Earlier in the week I spent some time on a couple of employment websites to apply to positions that felt right. I ended up submitting seven applications by the end of the day. Good progress.

By mid-week I saw that two of the job applications I submitted were rejected. I unconsciously reverted to my past habits, thoughts patterns and old stories, lack of self-worth and hopelessness. However, as I was unconsciously tripping over these habits and thoughts patterns, I thought to myself:

"Why do I still believe this about myself? Why is my default to become upset with the job search process?"

After asking myself these questions, I remembered:

"This is how I was conditioned to believe in myself. These habits and thought patterns are just residual elements of my unconscious and they are not real. I don't actually believe this about myself. I don't need to re-invent past emotional wounds. I am safe."

While I continued to navigate my inner world regarding my perceived "rejection", I continued to remember. Specifically, I revisited how I discovered my last job. I was out in the park walking my dog and saw another person with their dog coming in my direction. Both dogs wanted to say hello to each other. Naturally the humans said hello to each other as well.

The conversation with my fellow human started small and then moved into a discussion around employment. I remember her saying that her friend works for a dog walking business and that they are always looking for Walkers. This discovery of employment naturally came into my life, I did not force it's creation into existence.

From that point on, I was given the details of the organization and ended up working their for 9 months before moving to the Mid-West. Revisiting this experience brought a sense of calm into my life. I was then able to release my residual unconscious habits and thought patterns to focus on parts of myself that are constructive, not destructive.

The essence of this experience continues to expand throughout other areas of my life. For example, I am broadening my social media presence for Planet Phoenix. There is always a learning curve with every new platform, regardless of functional parallels.

That being said, I took the time to upload all of the relevant content I want to share and then discovered that I did something incorrect. This "mistake" would require me to revisit the content to edit it at a later date.

In the past, I would have deleted all of the work and started again. In the present, I chose to leave the content as it is. I will revisit it and edit it in the future when I have the space to do so. In my past career obsessing over controlling content management was a perception that was a perceived universal law. You were not allowed to break this law.

But...this perceived law of marketing was a projection of control, not a law of necessity. I allowed myself to break the metaphorical law projected onto me. I won't lie the former Project Manager/Producer in me still wants to go into the platform and "start from scratch". I'm choosing to use this experience an opportunity to let go.

I'm taking this perceived "mistake" and seeing it at larger level. Each step I am taking brings me closer to a larger objective set forth by consciousness. I am choosing to surrender to trusting this process. As the saying goes - "Patience is a virtue".

I am allowing myself to be more open to patience authentically. I will have what I need, when I need it and I'm grateful for what I have right now.

Thanks for reading and please enjoy your present moment!

Matt

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